dreams

I have been having the most greusome dreams lately. It may be a side effect of the medicine I'm taking but god, they're awful.


Dream 1:




I am menstruating profusely and cannot stop. I run downstairs to my mothers room and beg her to take me to the emergency room. She declines and calls a team of psychiatrists (??) who put me through extensive questioning while I am pretty much hemhorraging everywhere. I had to ride with them in their car through hills and gorgeous mountains. One of them was always wearing a blue suit. Jason eventually turned into the man with a blue suit but was incredibly lecherous. He kept a telescope in his living room and would act as if he was just playing around moving it back and forth but it actually had a recording divice in it and would record everything he pointed it at. I came to the realization that I had to kill him. And did. I waited until we were to meet for a date and I came into his house dressed nicely. I made him a drink and put sleeping pillls in it. Danny was standing next to him at the kitchen sink and had already stabbed him once. I took the knife out of dannys hand and stabbed Jason in the back. He immediately turned back into Jason, my boyfriend and the end of my dream was us lying on the ground embracing each other. Him completely unaware that I had stabbed him and he was goign to die soon. HORRIBLE.



Dream 2 (last night):


I was in a public bathroom downtown with Katrina. There was blood all over the floor and I just kept screaming "WHAT ARE YOU THINKING!?!?" over and over.

Still reeling from this one:




Dream in which I was at a party with a bunch of people and took some kind of drug and almost overdosed. Was laying on the ground eyes rolled back in head not knowing what to do because regardless of the fact that my body was completely immobile my thoughts were still clear and coherent. The girl who gave me the drug kepr trying to sober me up by spraying me with these little viles of blood. After I half sobered up this big man burst through the door with a gun. Everyone ran out the back door of the house but I couldn't because I was still completely paralyzed from waist down so I crawled in between a book shelf and a wall hoping he wouldn't see me. I saw him kill a bunch of people and then he noticed I was there. He for some reason took a liking to me and I was forced to go to an art gallery with him. He left the art gallery and returned with duct tape, a rope, and a burlap sack. I ran behind a counter of a restaurant screaming to the cashier that I was going to be killed but she kept insisting that I get back in line before I placed my order. I eventually surrendered and got in the car with him with another girl. No idea who she was we stopped and they got out of the car and bought two guns. When they got back in the car she had one and he had one. I was sitting in between them in the front seat. She handed me one and the end of the dream was us pulling out of the parking lot while I was waiting for the right time to shoot him in the head.

I had the most disgusting dream last night. Truly revolting. I dreamt I had this big red bump on my inner thigh and when I squeezed it a quarter of a clove of garlic came out. It had the consistency of a potato. DISGUSTING.

Dream 1:


I needed to get a potrait taken or take one and there were too many people coming so we took seperate cars. My mom and Jason and Genaro in one, me in the other I guess. After my potrait was done I came back to the mall or wherever we were and Jason was with this girl. And genaro and my mom and everybody told me about them. And he wouldn't talk to me. When I got back to my hotel (which was supposed to be shared with jason, but he got one with her instead) I tried calling him. But no dice. Even in my dream I felt so heavy and helpless and sad and hysterical.Then I called my moms ex-fiance and blubbered to him a while about how he chated on me, too. (????)



Dream 2:


Genaro and I finally make it to Portland and it is the first day of school. I have an art class and my professor is Jello Biafra. The kids in my class are hipster snobby types but I like the professor so I stay. After class he walks me out and tells me where to look for apartments. I find Genaro in the hall and we walk to the center of the campus and when we get there we realize that it's the highschool we both got kicked out of in tenth grade. Ugh.


Woke up tangled in blankets crying.

Last night I dreamt I was having sex with someone with a moustache and a trucker cap. It was disgusting. Outside a Lincoln Contintinental. He later turned into Jason and the sex was nice. Later that evening Jason had friends come over and there was a girl there who wouldn't atlk to me. And they kept talking and running off together. There was a naked woman (Gorgeous) in my claw foot bath tub upstairs who Jason was making passes at, wearing a velvet suit. I kept running into my bedroom and crying to Katrina. My beatles poster was gone, Jason was ignoring me. And at the climax of the dream a huge wave came and everything washed everything away. Jason, the girl, the tub. Everything. The end of my dream, although a little less dramatic and serious, was Yoko Ono Katrina driving across the pacific ocean in a lincoln continental, trying to save me.

dream that i couldn't get away from my moms ex fiance. he was naked. i kept trying to leave his house but didnt want to be rude. we kept windingup in this grocery store.



dream that kevin and jason were at a show at a christian church and being really obnoxious. kevin was being mean to me and i was hitting on some ridiculous punk rock kid.

Dream in which I had chicken pox and my entire body was covered in weird red dots. It was disgusting.


Dream in which Albert Fish was going to make stew out of me.

Last night I dreamt of getting out of a car with trevor. We were with a girl we used to run around with and she had on really weird baggy clothes. Everything was foggy. When I woke up my fision was blurry. Still is.

Dream in which Jason kept running off with other girls. I had really big ugly teeth and I couldn't keep them in my mouth. This has to be my 10th dream about the teeth.